“What happened with the companion on the elevator?” Twin Flames, what is it?"

Donna L. Holloman, The Spiritual Archer

The “Twin Flame” Personal Experience: “Only when I can see me, I can see you!”

THIS IS A TRUE STORY BY DONNA L. HOLLOMAN'S ACCOUNTS AND RECOLLECTION - NON-FICTION

. . . My golly! The heavens opened up! The thing about this story. . . I wasn’t alone. A second person was with me through a short, but profound experience . . . Angels . . . Heaven? Months later, as I researched the phenomena, the person, the only male companion with me on the elevator that day, may, perhaps, have been my "Twin Flame" Not familiar with the story of Donna’s spiritual awakening experience? Get acquainted and check out her first Blog to learn more at Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer, http://thespiritualarcher.com/ press the “Learn More” button. Let me know how I'm doing. Are you getting it? Does it make sense? Comment, and/or Like us on Facebook #TheSpiritualArcher

In The Spirit of Awareness

Sunday, January 14, 2018

There was no particular reason, but I had suddenly come down with the blues. At that time I was working on the last leg of a second master’s degree, all while employed full time. However, I was absolutely determined to finish the program. With everything in me, I read, I researched, I read again, wrote papers, and was presenting findings in front of a class of about 15 people, on a regular basis. I and my classmates were continually engaged in challenging, yet fulfilling conversations and, I enjoyed thinking of the possibilities after graduation.

I believed I was finally living on my own terms after raising four (4) children, a divorcee now, a happy, single empty nester. After a long work day, I’d begin my studies, would find time to spend with family, friends, acquaintances and clients. Additionally, I always found a variety of things to delve myself into, like real estate. I loved every one of my endeavors, and still do to this day. I was content taking time out for myself in meditation, had myself a nice mantra to go along with my days. In essence, I was feeling freer than ever.

A PURGE

Nevertheless, one day, in between class sessions and, during a vacation I’d taken from work, I began to feel a deepening sadness. Okay, every now and again I may get one of these bouts of sad spirts and such throughout my years, perhaps, at least once or twice, in a lifetime. On the other hand, this time, the gloom was extreme, where I must’ve cried and slept, cried and slept, cried again and slept for about three days. I felt I would never come out of it, like this was my world, and I would have to live there forever, a hell on Earth! There were so many tears come from me, crying, screaming to the universe, asking the “why me’s?” and so on. It was one of those cries, with meditation in between the tears, staring at the ceiling, spacing out. At first I thought perhaps I was doing too much, I should quit school since I already had one mba. My plate was running over, was my predisposition. As I pondered the lowness of my being . . . that wasn’t it, I was truly enjoying the diversities of my world, and I loved it.

On the last day of crying myself to sleep, because last I remember, it was daylight, then it was the next evening.

The next day after that, I awoke feeling really fantastic! The Sun was shining. I felt so good enough, I could simply fly away, off the balcony from my little condo apartment and whisk away to work.

I must’ve needed that! Later on, I called this a “purge”.

This was THE DAY of the “ELEVATOR” phenomena (check out my featured blog post “The Spiritual Archer: My Story” to learn more).

“Twin Flame”

“. . . As this phenomenon is happening, we are gazing in each other’s eyes. I wanted to just let out a massive SCREAM . . . I wanted to yell “what’s happening!”. . . But I couldn’t . . . as though my thoughts and fears were gently and peacefully yielded by someone or something . . . like a soft, warm rain had been sprinkled over me . . . All I could feel was an intense feeling of “LOVE”, “PEACE, PURE STILLNESS” everywhere; . . . fear had been completely erased from my being . . . not sure if my companion was experiencing the same phenomena, the love in the ai, was so great and powerful as if one could succumb to the mere presence of it. Nonetheless, we survived . . . alive enough to see ourselves floating in a strange world. Whatever was around me, and/or perhaps both of us, kept us safe and at ease . . .” Featured Blog Post The Spiritual Archer: My Story

The elevator door opens (see featured blog), like a gentleman; he gently holds the double doors open for me to exit first, while our eyes still seemed to be locked into gazing position toward one another. He asked, right away, even before I had a chance to get off the ride, “would you like to have lunch with me?” I’m thinking, “okay . . . did you just feel/witness that?” but all I could say was “Yea . . . okay!” I then replied, “Lunch tomorrow sounds good (since he was new to the area), “I’ll show you the best part of our town”. The river in our downtown is a great place for meditation, and offers many restaurants for our choosing, all in walking distance.

The next day, our lunch tour, and from the looks on our faces, we were teenagers again, and perhaps probably lost a lot of sleep the night before, in great anticipation of the meeting! “What in the world are you doing, Donna?” I’d asked myself. Then, I thought “this is a stranger, . . . okay . . . but, people I know, also know him well, since he’s been working at the place for, at least, three months now, and me, more than 5 years.” I thought, “okay, what the heck . . . why not?”

From the onset, I was particularly comfortable with this person, and I think him the same with me because all we kept bringing up is the beautifulness of each other, and our similarities (like quirks we share in common) of one another. We talked about family, friends, travel and more. On the other hand, there was something else in this. . . it was more than an average lunch meeting, it was as if we knew each other before, like . . . in another lifetime perhaps, like Adam finally found Eve after many, many years apart, for example. And, not to mention the LOVE, DEEP LOVE, almost like the INTENSITY of the LOVE felt on the elevator that day, we had for each other. It was a dream, a fantastic fantasy come true! Of course, we found it a challenge to let each other go after lunch, and later after a couple of dinners. I resisted the urge to go any further in this thing, for I did not know what it was. And, he lovingly responded in understanding to my wish. But, I was sure curious to find out more. I wanted to see him again, and again and as much as possible!

I wanted us to be together . . . forever!

Love In Extreme

Instead, just for that reason, the intensity of the LOVE I felt for this person,

I knew in my heart of hearts, I must find the unconditional love, forgive myself of all my attachment beliefs, and let this person go. I sent a long TEXT to this person, explaining my reasons for ending it, because there was no way I could do it in person, and risk I would fall to my knees, breaking down, and giving in to my own fantasies! He asked to have one more lunch together, “just a lunch . . . to say goodbye”. I did . . . I met with him for the last time. I held on to my decision, and was very hard thing to do. I felt as if I may have been losing my mind over a person I knew nothing about. I could not stand the intensity any longer. We hugged, cried, said our goodbyes, and it was over . . . so I thought.

The problem . . . SELF! LOVE is a LIGHT, and it SHINES out all darkness. TWIN FLAMES LIGHTS ARE SO BRIGHT, DARKNESS cannot escape the PURE, UNEQUIVOCAL, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE! No matter what you do, once the Light finds the tiniest of openings in the heart, It will shine on the deepest, darkest parts of our cores. The love we felt for one another was intense enough that, if we weren’t careful, we could also destroy ourselves from our own thoughts of grandeur in the process of loving, not unlike the story of Romeo and Juliette, where the end was, you know . . . not so good.

DARKNESS MUST COME OUT INTO THE LIGHT.

For example, if an insecure person met a “Twin Flame”, and they continued to be insecure, it could get rather intense and dangerous . . . to a point of what a person would or could possibly do in order to hold on to the relationship, sometimes by any means necessary. That’s because the mind is taking over, where the heart is supposed to be. And, the reason “Twin Flames” are a rare occurrence, because most are still trapped in another notion, a a beautiful fairytale.

THE PAIN OF A TWIN FLAME EXPERIENCE COMES FROM THE IMAGINARY SOURCE OF ATTACHMENT. Attachment is a part of the ego mind in believing we have control over anything. WE DON’T. A RELATIONSHIP IS ONE THAT TEACHES LOVE UNCONDITIONAL! WHEN WE LET GO OF ATTACHMENT, THE EXPERIENCE IS MUCH EASIER, LIGHTER. THE TIGHTER WE HOLD OR CONTROL, THE MORE INTENSE THE INNER PAIN OF THE RELATIONSHIP.

ADDITIONALLY, A TWIN FLAME IS A MIRROR, IF WE JUDGE THE PERSON (The “Twin”), WE JUDGE OURSELVES, IF WE HURT THE PERSON, WE CAN HURT OURSELVES. If we want a "Twin Flame" relationship, we'd get to be willing to face, embrace, and transcend our own personal demons. In other words, it's almost impossible to blame a "Twin" for ones ails.

BY DEVINE LIGHT, DARKNESS CANNOT HIDE. And, the “Twin Flame” experience is a divine one! Some “Twin Flames” survive through all their own mind, fantasies, control, fears and stay together, while others can lose their minds in the intensity of PURE LOVE, LIGHT!

The blessing of the "Twin Flame" I see me.

The curse of the "Twin Flame" I see me.

THE FANTASY

My old thinking, I mean who does not want that grand ole fairytale knocking down your door to whisk you off into the sunset on a white horse! I’M HUMAN! Well, the old adage of being human . . . we learn from history that the fairytale may be possible. Look at Princess Diana, for an example. How many people want that? A LOT! WELL, I WAS ONE OF THOSE! AND I HONED IN ON IT TOO!

Yes, I romanticized the hell out of it in my mind. Hey, I was like “Halleluiah!” “I don’t believe I’ve ever been loved like this before!” I would tell myself.

WHY?? I cried to the heavens. WHY must I let him go?

AND, BECAUSE THE EXPERIENCE, AND BECOMING AWARE THE FANTASIES OF MY OWN MIND AGAINST MY HEART, I WAS BACK . . . BACK TO THE CRYING TEARS FOR ANOTHER TWO DAYS! Purging . . . once again.

“I see now . . . if even just a little bit” I say to the Universe “Thank You for thinking of me in my Earthly learning experience!” Amen (I bow)

Where do I put my “Faith” now, after that Loving experience? In Me, because Almighty is there. I change myself, I change the world.

Twin Flames creates desires that are unobtainable with mere fantasy, but a force to open ones heart to pure Unconditional LOVE. “Only when I can see me, I can see you!” #TheSpiritualArcher

LOVE UNCONDITIONAL

TRUE. One can have the fairytale he or she dreams of AT A PRICE! The “PRICE” . . . LOVE UNCONDITIONAL! Essentially, the fairytale dream or thought of the fantasy, we do our best to control, to harness it, to wedding it. Weddings are not a bad thing, but the wanting for the mere fantasy is the epitome . . . I believe they are so beautiful and brings alive the potential prospect that “it could happen to me one day” scenario.

But, “God”, “Universal Law”, “Ground Rules” (or higher self, higher power, or whomever you so choose to call It) HAS OTHER IDEAS. “LOVE” does not discriminate, so a “Twin Flame” can come in many different forms; rich or poor, tall or short . . . you will truly “know” when you have met one, there is absolutely no doubt! I believe the reason they are so few and far between, is because most of our thoughts of grandeur deters it.

If you believe you’ve met a “Twin Flame” and he seems to be a bad person, for example, the only way to survive and be free, is to locate that “bad” thing inside the self, embrace it, and the other will follow suit, because you are one, when one changes, the other also changes. OTHERWISE THE MIND WILL SUCCUMB TO A HEART IN SUFFERING, OR COME BACK ANOTHER DAY UNTIL A LESSON IS LEARNED. THE THING WE TEND TO PLACE ABOVE LOVE, IS FANTASY. Am I saying that “fantasy” hurts? Well, only if we put all our faith in it, it can hurt a lot if it doesn’t pan out the way we expect it to.

The awakening, from my point of view, is saying “LET GO OF THOUGHTS OF GRANDEUR AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE MORE!”

I realized something in this situation; I learned that we all romanticize about relationships as evidenced with being whisked off into the sunset on a white horse by the love of our lives, etc., etc. And, I was there. I was in a fantasy world, where I chose to look at the romantics of the situation, normal me.

And, the UNCONDITIONAL LOVE PART, is not for the other, but for MYSELF, forgiving myself through the pain against the fantasy, and while the darkness in me comes to Light, if only for my own personal awareness.

In hindsight, if I did not experience that excruciating, debilitating sadness prior, I’m not sure if I would have survived the encounter, the "phenomenon", without that “PURGE”.

He still does exist, and we see each other, every now and again, from afar. For privacy reasons, I’d rather keep it personal. “The companion on the elevator with no name” “Twin Flames” I can only handle ME in little bite-sized portions, right now! Who knows, we’ll probably meet again one day, when I have learned to release more of my own self-imagined beliefs. And, thanks to you, I can begin healing the many other parts of me.

I met my "Soulmate" four (4) months later.

We have been inseparable since the first day.

Next up;

“Mind vs Heart, a Spiritual Warfare”

“Unconditional Love, is that possible?”

“Angels, Heaven” Lessons in Contrast, good/bad, dark/light, happy/sad.

“The Purge” and why must we release?

“Imagination is created from past mistakes, present circumstances, and future adjustments. Live in the moment?”

“Why suffer?”

And more at Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer

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Donna shares her experiences of a spiritual awakening, and how she “works it out, through the heart”. Hence the name, The Spiritual Archer, where she offers techniques used to ride the waves of the spiritual awakening process. For example, she provides techniques “to successfully quit smoking”, to “help live in the moment”, “how to ride high, with love and forgiveness of self” while undergoing the many vast feelings associated with the spiritual awakening experience, and so much more!

Thank you for stopping by, and until next time, Namaste

Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer

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Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer, see FEATURE BLOG POST: To recap, five (5) years ago, in 2012, Angels, Heaven, or something like it, had a strong desire to assist Donna through a short, but profound spiritual awakening phenomena. The heavens opened up! The thing about this story. . . she wasn’t alone . . . this is all happening while completely sober (no drugs of any kind and/or alcohol). At this time in her life, she was on the last leg of finishing a second Master's Degree, and of course, working full time in an office environment . . . Not familiar with the story of Donna’s spiritual awakening experience? Get acquainted and check out her first Blog to learn more at Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer, http://thespiritualarcher.com/ press the “Learn More” button.