Feelings Cleanup - To Embrace What Lies Beneath

To recap a TRUE STORY, five (5) years ago, in 2012, Angels, Heaven, or something like it, had a strong desire to assist Donna through a short, but profound spiritual awakening phenomena. The heavens opened up! The thing about this story. . . she wasn’t alone . . . this is all happening while completely sober (no drugs of any kind and/or alcohol). At this time in her life, she was on the last leg of finishing a second Master's Degree, and of course, working full time in an office environment . . . Not familiar with the story of Donna’s spiritual awakening experience? Get acquainted and check out her Featured BLOG to learn more at Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer - My Story, http://thespiritualarcher.com/ press the “Learn More” button.

The Experience is Ever Present

The experience is still ever present in me, and life has not been the same, of course. My life gradually "turned" or is "turning" around from years past. There are always periods in life when we get to turn, be turned or whatever based on that which has impacted our lives in one way or another. Being turned is the story of life.

About God: I grew up to believe there was a God, especially since living with parents of two (2) separate religions (one Methodist, the other Hebrew or something like it). Once my parents separated, we (my siblings and I) begin to learn, a little more, of the one religion. In due course, we returned to the other parent, back to the other’s faith, and grew to appreciate the other religion as well. I believe there is something in the Religious experience that can help people get a glimpse into spiritual world(s). Starting out in a religion, for me, had its benefits, which may have helped in assisting me through such a heavenly experience I encountered in 2012. I don't know what I would have done if I had no semblance of religion in my background.

The first feature blog post is just a summary of the story, which may be a book at some point in the near future.

Me and the companion eventually went our separate ways. Although it was a very short, yet memorable experience, to say the least, was difficult to let go, spiritually. Like Bella longs for Edward in the Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer.

I was in mourning for someone, a stranger. How could this be? . . . Why? . . . What? . . . We just met! Perhaps me and this person knew each other in another life, what else could be the reason I felt so strongly. We, as humans, experience this love loss in one way or another in our lives. This is an example of a spiritual awakening, where our personal life becomes nothing more than the emotions that seem to bury us alive. Hence, the spiritual awakening. Although these awakening experiences are regular occurrences in life, look around, something is different, changing in the world around us. Check out the YouTube video "AWAKENING" by the RING Channel. People are awakening in the masses and it's growing, and as I see it, the only way, is through it, to embrace what lies beneath.

Someone said, "Make no bones about it, awakening is not a walk in the park. It is a ride through hell". (by Uplift, "Awakening is a Destructive Process")

By the Weekend . . .

By the weekend, I felt beside myself. I felt so distraught that I implored, and prayed to ask the heavens “what the . . . did you do to me?” What do I do with all these feelings, like love feelings, hate feelings, joy feelings, frustration feelings, and so on. They were coming up from within my being more than usual, and more powerful than ever before . . . Even though all those strange feelings were felt so far within, I still had the most loving composure about myself. Something higher than me kept me going. There was no way I was maintaining this kind of composure through it all, alone. How could I be so calm when my insides were in such turmoil?

Fighting all those feelings was not an option. The only choice, the only possible choice, was to learn to love and embrace each and every feeling that came to the surface. I cried to the heavens “that is impossible!" How does any human being do that? How do I learn to embrace all those enormous feelings (emotions) when all I want to do is to scream, cry, shout at someone, blame someone else. Regardless . . . there was no one. There was no one to blame . . . not anymore. I had to take up my cross and learn the art of carrying each and every feeling, from the large and "angry" to the simple "teed-off" type of emotions I carried around on a daily basis. Those tiny critter feelings, I call them, as an example, is like if someone was driving their car, not paying attention to the road, crosses your path, and you swerve. I would normally yell “what is wrong with you, you !@#%*#”. I told myself, maybe I can begin with that small feeling to learn how to manage my feelings in some way? Although, at times, it felt really good to just yell at that guy, that joker on the road. It took some time, but eventually, I learned how to embrace those types of feelings, and be grateful me and the joker lived another day.

The Only Way is to Feel Through the Feeling to DeClutter . . .

Time to remove the clutter of those feelings with spiritual chores. Out of so many vast feelings that come up from within, the only way was for me to just pick a feeling I'd like to work on, like that "joker on the road" frustration . . . I would first, be aware of the feeling, breathe through the feeling, embrace the feeling through breath, become the feeling for the feeling itself, and always find forgiveness in self for allowing negative thoughts of the feeling. Hence #LiveBreatheLove. If the feeling returned, I would try again . . . and again, until finally the feeling left, was gone . . . forever. I would do this by choosing one feeling at a time, and work with it, not giving any reaction to it, simply letting it be.

If one cannot choose a feeling to work it out, find something that's undesirable in oneself, for example like smoking cigarettes. I loved smoking cigarettes for a while, the sexyiness of it, or whatever he's smoking. Over time, I began to get tired of the habit. And, since I couldn't really narrow down which feeling I could target, I chose smoking to learn the embracing technique while using the awakening process. I honestly did not understand what embrace my feelings meant until I tried the "quit smoking" technique. Then, I knew. See my next blog "how I quit smoking cigarettes, forever".

The catalyst, each feeling MUST BE EMBRACED WHILE IN THE MIDST OF TURMOIL.

Some of those robust feelings that land in your lap, like anger perhaps, may be a bit more challenging to hold on to, or to manage the awareness, especially while in the midst of a tumultuous situation. Those are the best times to do the work though, is while in the midst, prior to reacting. These may take a few practice runs. Watch for my video blog about "how to resolve those little negative feelings that keep popping up". Also, "where do those negative feelings go when they disappear, forever?" and Why Care?"

Just Being Aware . . . Is that all I have to do?

We humans practice a lot of rituals throughout the day, and in some cases, we can do with our eyes closed. Perhaps we've lost our feelings sense of spiritual awareness in the scheme of life. "Awareness is like the sun. When it shines on things, they are transformed." Thich Nhat Hanh

In my experience, if I react to situations as I have prior to the "profound spiritual phenomina", that feeling of frustration would only become stronger . . . then stronger the next time. In other words, if I fight the feeling by lashing out at anything or anyone, later on and magically, there would be another joker on the road, until I was able to clear the feeling, the cycle would continue, and continue, and continue. I was finally able to embrace the fact that, that person could have been me not paying attention. Henceforth, I had to ask myself, “How would I treat me if I was the joker on the road?”

Later, I learned that "most of those feelings were not mine" and "if those feelings belong to someone else, how do I conquer them?" So, not only am I dealing with the vast feelings in my own world, how do I deal with others' feelings? Wow!

The Urge to Continue "The Positive Life Search" . . .

"Positive emotion may be considered as any feeling where there is a lack of negativity, such that no pain or discomfort is felt. Frederickson (2009) identifies the ten most common positive emotions as joy, gratitude, serenity, interest, hope, pride, amusement, inspiration, awe and love." (by ChangingMinds.com)

Not much longer, after that spiritual experience on the elevator, I felt like Richard Dryfuss in the movie “Close Encounters of the Third Kind” Science fiction film/Thriller by Steven Spielberg. You know the part (mashed potatoes at the dinner table) when he knew something, but couldn’t quite figure out what it was. He continued to have the urge to know more, despite the fact that his family, job and everyone else around him was being affected? He was alone, and only he could find the answer. He wanted life to go back to the way it was, normal again. Will it be normal again? Hence, the spiritual awakening process.

That clip, fairly, describes, perhaps, what it may feel like in the spiritual awakening process. A lot of us may not know what is happening, but something is indeed happening.

As a result of my awakening experience on the elevator that day, and since then, not unlike Dryfuss, I truly felt an urge to know more. It felt like I read a million books about heaven, angels, twin flames, heavenly experiences, the Mayan and the Hopi Prophecies, and how to be . . . I was in a learning vortex! The more I learned, the more I wanted to learn, the more I wanted to understand, and on . . . and on . . . I learn. I still find time to read something about heaven, love and being positive daily. I was not only reading books, I was watching so many videos, YouTube videos, free videos, library videos and more.

Positive thinking would be the only way I could possibly cope with all the ups and downs of the awakening process.

“Your eyes can deceive you. Don’t trust them.” – Obi-Wan Kenobi

I learned about folks and genres such as Eckhart Tolle, Gary Zukov, Sonia Chiquette, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Ishwar Puri Ji, and learned of other worlds in the works of Dolores Cannon (hypnotist who speaks to the other side through her patients), Abraham Hicks (who channels a spirit guide named Abraham about the law of attraction), Bashar (who channels a spirit guy who lives on Mars, I think), along with other folks who believe that our biology of belief can change worlds, like Bruce Lipton, Gregg Brayden and so many more. Hence, my memes website: https://www.positivevortex.com/, check it out and like us on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/PositiveVortexLiving/.

I share what I've learned, and continue to learn how to navigate the spiritual awakening experience.

Up Next . . .

I will talk about "how I quit smoking cigarettes using the spiritual awakening process " however, for me, I had to exhaust all other options. This would be my last ditch effort to quit smoking, through all those beautiful feelings, in the spirit of awareness.

Stay tuned as Donna offers lessons on how she navigates the intense nature of the spiritual awakening process.

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About Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer

Donna shares her personal experiences of a spiritual awakening, and how she “works it out, through the heart”. Hence the name, The Spiritual Archer, sharing techniques she used to target emotions with awareness through the Spiritual Awakening Process.

Such as, "how she successfully quit smoking, forever”, "how she was able to VANISH those little negative feelings that kept popping up", " what it means to live in the moment”, “how to ride high, with love and forgiveness of self” while undergoing the many vast feelings associated with the spiritual awakening experience, and so much more!

Thank you for stopping by, and until next time, Namaste

What happens when I begin to embrace my feelings . . .

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ˈspiriCH(o͞o)əl/Submit adjective

1. relating to or affecting the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things.

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