“Allowing vs Attachment, a Spiritual Warfare”
- Donna L Holloman
- Jan 28, 2018
- 6 min read
He walked toward me as I was standing at the entrance to my office. I could not help it. I was drawn into his soul, even as he was about 50 feet away, slowly moving toward me, I could tell, I knew. What did I know? I just knew. I knew I was home. I knew he was the one I’ve been dreaming about. He was the “FACE” in my dream that night!
I cannot run. I cannot hide. He’s here. I stood there . . . my eyes locked onto his . . . I was frozen. He came closer . . . then closer. When he arrived directly in front of me . . . he whispered softly, in a strong, mesmerizing voice, “you are so beautiful”. (huhhh). I said, in kind, “you are beautiful too” while I felt like hugging him so tight, kissing him ever so softly, and melting in awe of the beauty before me, I held my composure, and kept it secretly tucked away, only until he breaks the silence first.
I thought to myself “Donna, what are you saying? . . . What are you thinking?” . . . “I don’t know!” as my eyes cannot seem to look away from his. But . . . I forced myself . . . to . . . “s a y s o m e t h i n g!” I said, “is there anything I can help you with?” and to my amazement, not unlike on the elevator, I held my professional composure, showing no indication that I could possibly have anything to do with a coworker.
He said, “Yes”, and goes on to say “I did come over here to ask you a question . . . but . . . then I realized . . . I must’ve used ‘the question’ as an excuse to see you . . . because, I suddenly lost what I was going to ask”.
“No worries. Why don’t we shoot the breeze a little, since you’re new to the company, and perhaps we’ll find the question together?" I said.
We talked, surprisingly, for a while, it may have been near the end of the day, because unbeknownst to us, everyone had gone for the day. As far as I was concerned, we were the only persons on the planet. He explained his reasons of the new position, other work related and other bs as we stare at each other in awe, holding our breath in anticipation for our lunch date the next day.
Then he said, “Donna, are we still doing lunch tomorrow?”
I believe he was trying to see if I was some crazy, stalker woman before he actually convinced himself that “it would be okay to continue plans for lunch”, he may have thought, or the reason he came by to talk.
"Sure. And, I have the perfect place!" I said
"I'm looking forward to it". “May I walk you to your car?” he said.
I said, “Sure. That’ll be nice.”
“Okay. Let me grab my things, and I will meet you at the elevator” he says . . .
The Elevator! I thought.
He met me at the elevator and said, “Would you mind if we take the stairs?”
He read my mind! “Sounds good to me!” I replied.
Allowing
Did I meet this person for reasons to bring on some type of inner, spiritual warfare of sorts, where I wanted one thing, but the thing I wanted was not for the taking, but for the allowing. What does that mean, allowing? I like what Eckhart Tolle said in his Living a Life of Inner Peace: “The moment that judgement stops through acceptance of what is, you are free of the mind. You have made room for love, for joy, for peace.”
Personally, I was full of the judgement or attachment ideals, and the very idea of the romance aspect of love, joy and peace with the one I love for the rest of my days, seemed to be more attractive? Sure, and why not? I was married before, a long time ago, and he was a really good man, but it just didn’t work out like the fairy tale ending story I dreamed of. And, sure why not have that again, with the “right one”? Not!
According to the Higher spirit world, "it's time to learn something new". "It's time to wake up from the illusion".
How or why is it that we get so emotionally attached to a person, place, fantasy or thing?
The experience on the elevator invited me take a good, long, hard look at my ideals, and what they really mean for me.
The Visit
A heavenly experience visited me for a reason, and I believe the reason is I carried a lot of attachment (fear) issues, either from my past, or per Dolores Cannon, other past lives. What I learned, “Love” is just Love, and there’s nothing more to it than that. I wanted to believe that "Love" was grand, but it is more like the air we breathe. Love is what we are.
It seems that us humans need to be attached to something and/or someone in one way or another, and we tend to use "Love" as a hook.
So, why did I feel this way for a complete, total stranger? What was this all about? Why choose me to experience such great Love energy?
I am so very grateful I was chosen for such an amazing phenomenon. I will cherish the fact that Love and Light came swooping into my life.
But the result of the phenomena caused some extreme feelings to come to surface. There was no way I could stop, or control all the feelings that came along with the intense feelings of my own attachment (or abandonment) issues, and excruciating sense of loss, that continuously cropped up within me.
An awakening is the Light penetrating through oneself, allowing the Darkness to come out.
I realized that I must find a way to “allow” all those intense feelings to take its course, because fighting was essentially, futile. The feelings were so intense that I could have easily succumbed to the fear end of the spectrum. Instead, I chose to “allow” and “embrace” each and every feeling that came up, in order to assist in it's transcendance.
Suffering Through
The most challenging part . . . the suffering is extremely powerful, as long as I was unaware of the feeling, and simply reacted, such as anger, hate, jealousy, or even attachment issues, they would usually always return with a vengeance the next time around.
The Lesson
As a result, once I became aware of each terrible feeling(s), if for perhaps for a fraction of a second, somehow the suffering leaves, dissipates in thin air, like a mist, a steam cloud, and poof, it’s gone.
Although I am human, and still have some remnants of fear issues within, perhaps dormant in the background, I learned how to embrace most of those terrible feelings, when they do arise, with love and understanding. In other words, I get to stand in the presence of fear, and fear will . . . simply . . . leave.
Next up . . .
“Unconditional Love” Is that possible?
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Until next time,
Namaste
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Donna shares her experiences of a spiritual awakening, and how she “works it out, through the heart”. Hence the name, The Spiritual Archer, where she offers techniques used to ride the waves of the spiritual awakening process. For example, she provides techniques “to successfully quit smoking”, to “help live in the moment”, “how to ride high, with love and forgiveness of self” while undergoing the many vast feelings associated with the spiritual awakening experience, and so much more!
Thank you for stopping by, and until next time, Namaste
Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer
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(“religious background” story to come later)
Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer, see FEATURE BLOG POST: To recap, five (5) years ago, in 2012, Angels, Heaven, or something like it, had a strong desire to assist Donna through a short, but profound spiritual awakening phenomena. The heavens opened up! The thing about this story. . . she wasn’t alone . . . this is all happening while completely sober (no drugs of any kind and/or alcohol). At this time in her life, she was on the last leg of finishing a second Master's Degree, and of course, working full time in an office environment . . . Not familiar with the story of Donna’s spiritual awakening experience? Get acquainted and check out her first Blog to learn more at Donna L. Holloman: The Spiritual Archer, http://thespiritualarcher.com/ press the “Learn More” button.
